Un-Happy Halloween

Other people who are not you guys suck. They are just not as fun. I've been going on and on about how I wanted to have a party, but the varying schedules of the remnant (yes, that is what I am calling those who were left behind in CA) were not conducive to such an event. So, I decided to substitute with a family get together. I invited my younger cousins to come over in their costumes to carve pumpkins. I hunted for days to complete my pirate costume and spent countless hours scouring the net for pumpkin carving patterns. I also bought really cool monster candies for each of them and the good mini candybars. I woke up at 7am this morning (yes it is daylight savings) and began decorating so everyone would get into the spirit when they woke up/arrived. And would you believe those rotten kids? They didn't want to come in costume, them kept taking them off. They didn't want to carve pumpkins or get their hands dirty. They didn't want to watch Halloween movies, or listen to the Halloween CD Sonia and I worked on. They didn't even want ANY of the candy I bought. I ended up sitting outside carving my pumpkin by myself for an hour. I know they are only kids and that they are getting to the age where they aren't interested in hanging out with the family. But still, I put so much energy into this and my house looked really cute. Molly, you would be so proud of me. This was even better than when I had Halloween Koinonia in my room last year.
I don't know what I was expecting. Perhaps I was being un-realistic. These kids only care about video games...Not about quality time or memories. They don't yet realize how special this time is and how they may regret it later. But what am I saying? Look at me! I'm the poster child for living vicariously through others! I was trying to use the kids to feel connected and recapture that holiday magic. I was trying to hand them the relationship that I crave. It was my needs I was trying to meet. All I really wanted was to be with you guys. These Poor kids. They are no match for you.